Rose

I really got very angry over a short film, about a boy.

The boy in the film, is very smart, genius-like. His father, a booster, always praise his son in front of others no matter they are his uncles and aunties or just friends. He sounds like he is damn fking proud of his son.

In the middle of the film, the boy was confused over something, something simple. He was blurred and asked few questions to confirm his unsureness. The father’s reply is what makes me super angry and I sweared if I am that ordinary boy in the film I will chop his father to dead. fker !

His father, in front of his 2 uncles and 2 aunties, with pissed off looking face, talked very loudly as if he was shouting, saying ‘aiyo why you so dumb one’ to his son. Very real. Very good acting from the father.

I got so angry at the reply, and I thought in my mind, secretly. If thats the way a father shows his love towards his son that makes him proud always, don’t love your son. It was only 8.00pm and I emo-ed until now, 3.00am.

This emo feeling makes me sounds very harsh and desperate …in a phone call. I sounded like convincing… persuading…. begging to be exact. >_< Sorry for making you to think, to think a reason to reject the begging.

Lets listen to Jay Chau, Flower Sea…..

Yes, everything was ready, loan has been approved too. But there is 2 options. I get the car in 1 day time, silver color, or in 1 week time, white color.

My father was sort of convincing me on the phone, to get silver, since I will get it fast, and easier a lot to be taken care compared to white. Very true… But then….

I asked myself. If white color is what I want and what I like, why should I choose silver? Challenge my patience? Then I would be your worst undefeatable enemy. ;p It is just 6 days after all. Whitie, I will take care of you, always make sure you’re presentable, and let you glow with pride, shine brightly, everyday. XD

I will wait for your arrival… convertable….

*correction*
It is not 6days. It may be 6 days, 2 weeks…or so on. But still I will wait~

Thing was supposed to be done at 10.30pm. But I camped secretly till 11.00pm and i sent a ’spy’. But the spy didn’t not return, so my soldiers charged towards enemy base at 11.30pm. Mission – Accomplished.

Ignore first paragraph because it is for me to remember something. XD

Confirm 99.99% I’m going UTAR for A.S. Even if there is a place for me in UM, or even if NUS/NTU offers me 100% off from tuition fee, I choosed UTAR.

*update*
Because, going over’state’ or oversea, for me will have a high kos lepas. I need to sacrifice my annual income worth more than RM*secret* XD

A word in haste, leads to a minor criticism. A minor criticism, leads to second. Chain reaction takes place and the product will hurt someone, not knowing by others. Be careful~

S-o-r-r-y, simple meaning, easy to spell, smooth to pronounce, but difficult to say it out. Ain’t?

Some people who are easy going, will just apologize no matter who is right, who is wrong. I’m this kind of people. confirm….

Some people, before saying ’sorry’, will think for few hours, or few days, asking themselves ‘am I wrong?’, or ‘why should I say and not him?’. If your apologizing target is a friend of yours, don’t hesitate, say it.

You readers listen…. this word ’sorry’ is not simple!!! It is not only for you to excuse yourself from your failure, it is also…
To correct your fault,
To calm down situation,
To reopen conversation, and
To strengthen bonds between people, be it a family, couple, classmates, gaming friends and colleagues.

Sorry my friends, if I hurt you but I never say sorry to you. Forgive me…

My father booked a car for me. It’s a Saga new model. It’s my car. My name in it. I choosed white colour. I hope to get that car as soon as possible. I’m eager to fetch my friend and friendssss to ‘drink tea’ at night. XD

I’m happy to have a Saga, although it is not an expensive sport car. It is a return of all my money which had been saved every month since I gave tuition. XD It can be also a present from my father, for archiving a good result, better than what he had expected. I’m waiting my car to serve meeeeee !!!

I need to go back to school, Methodist Boys’ Secondary School, early tomorrow because I need to take my MUET result slip. I need it to complete my Uni application form. Zzzz

Now 1.00am, how am I to sleep now? With so much undone plans and worries that keep appearing everytime I close my eyes.

I’m in debt, of RM0.55 just because this resit. If the service charge of RM0.50 is distributed evenly. Another time of this one and a half hour?

My choices of local universities. ;P But I doubt I’ll be going either one of these.

Simple lessons to be learned by everyone.

Why need to be brave? Because if you are not brave enough, you will end up drinking half bottle of water just to do a simple thing i.e. making a phone call?

Why never give up? Because just now, I had failed twice to reach something in my first attempt. Then after 30minutes, I did my second attempt twice too, still I failed to reach it. I was getting worried whether I was fated to fail from the time I had that idea. In my third attempt which is another 30minutes later, I failed trice. For the forth attempt I just try without even consider the ways to reach it and its consequences, and this time, I succeed.

Difficult to understand these 2 lessons? Think of it….

I finally took my result after 3 months of waiting, 3 months of suffering, 3 months just refreshing the same memories over and over again. I finally regain my confidence, little by little. My result, not godlike, not perfect, not bad. Just 1 word to describe it, satisfying. here it is….

The 3As I got, I what I already knew before I sit for the exams. Sorry for being so arrogant, but my ‘confidence’ kept telling me that. XD Haiz, sad for Chemistry and P.A. I predicted I will get A for Chem !! and at least A- for P.A. But they turned to go 1 grade lower than what I want. My CGPA : 3.83! Overall, I’m satisfied with it, because nothing is perfect? ;p Here is a closer view to my result, see la if the first one doesn’t serve your eyes well.

Despite the proud, I was happy and worried over something. Haizzz, can’t believe I still emo even with the satisfying result. Hey you reader, don’t be upset if you got a not-so-pleasant result ya, let it be a motivator for you to work hard and the future is still bright. Tonight, sleep well ya…ylgooouorkgeous

A schedule less life, with random sleeping time, random napping time, random playing time and even random eating time, of me, is about to end I guess. Doing random stuffs and playing online game everyday noon and night, were fun when friends are around leveling together. Going out for midnight tea at almost 4 to 5 days per week just to keep my midnight busy chatting and gaming. This period of time, 3 months roughly, is not wasted, only it seemed little purposeless.

It is going to end because I will be getting my result in less than 24hours. I’m turning to be better or worse, depends on this ticket to the future. I’m worried, until I had a wonderful dream few days ago. I’m not sure whether I was infected with dreaming virus because I had another nightmare this morning. I considered it as my worst of all nightmares. Although it is just a dream of my conflict’ with friends, but it is far more dreadful than my zombie-escaping and zombie-slayer dreams I used to dream always.

The conflict was very serious, sort of a confession of something. Serious until I had to kneel down, for everyone to leave me alone to settle the thing. But I was like lost all trusts from my friends and almost nobody seemed to believe me. Even a soft and gentle friend* of mine, had turned into a fierce and furious foe of mine. It was too scary and it woke me up suddenly around 10a.m. I wanted to know the ending, so I tried to sleep again, but I was just rolling on my bed unable to sleep. Finally I got up from bed at 11.30a.m. And start writting this after lunch. I had been skipping breakfast for 3 months. >.<

of future….of worth remembering.

I had a dream yesterday. A short dream but it was not ended. It reached the climax and I woke up. Basically, my dream has the following plots:-

Main Characters : Myself….
Event : Lunch after Hari Anugerah Cemerlang
Venue : A random classroom in MBSSKL with my house toilet =.=
I guess the info is enough since its purpose is for myself to remember.

I had no idea why I would dream about Hari Anugerah Cemerlang. Maybe STPM result is coming out, and my inner unconcious mind is telling me that I had done a goodjob. /kis